Staying on Track

Wednesday, December 29, 2010 - Staying on Track

Guidance is a hug part of the journey I have been on the last two years through separation and divorce. So many special people helped me stay on track through the highs and lows along the way. I am so grateful for the friends who stood beside me – walking with me by listening, advising, holding me up, and helping turn all the tears into strength. I am so blessed by family who gave their love, prayers, and support – they were rocks I could cling to when I was swaying. The path of life I left behind was going downhill in alcoholism, debt, distrust, depression and despair.

God guided me, filled my soul and kept my face toward the sun on the new path, which gave me the strength to keep walking uphill. The sunshine along my path was, still is, and will always be – my three sons. My most important role in life is still the same – Mother. I truly feel it is the greatest gift I have been given. It is what I always wanted but I didn’t expect the huge detour that led to me to losing my husband. But as many have told me, I was already doing most of it on my own as far as raising our sons. That is what my ex could never see…all I wanted was for us to be his priority. But now, my former husband and I are working together on some parenting since the divorce– even more so than when married. I hope it shows our sons that I can work through anything as long as it is for them. One of my friends said she doesn’t know many people who can spend the day with their ex-spouse. I am glad I am not that kind of person. I think it helps the kids understand the path I chose because I am getting back to the person I used to be.

The peace I continue to gain in my heart assures me to keep walking straight. By keeping my faith in God while walking, I know am on the right track. With this, I can keep believing in myself and my choices and providing guidance to those following along – my three sons. Despite watching their parents head down different paths, I pray that I am helping them see that I couldn’t be the person on that other path any longer…I had lost myself and what it takes to be a good Mom. But now the path is clear, it is widening, and I am gaining speed and still moving uphill. Who knows what detours are ahead or even unexpected turns? But as long as I know who my Guide is I believe I will stay on track.

“The Lord will guide you always; He will satisfy your needs.” Isaiah 58:11